15/01

"Doesn't it scare you that you've wasted more 
than half your life hating yourself? It should."
- Michelle K.

Went through a sudden phase of anger and sadness last night.
Not sure if it's just PMS or a way I subconsciously use to cope with adapting.
I got angry. I suddenly miss home, my parents, my grandma, my grandpa. And then I started getting upset. And started tearing. And then I started crying at the thought of how I'm turning 21 and yet still behaving like a child. Sometimes I appear to be in complete control of myself, but on less fortunate days I'm a mess inside. I get angry easily now and I don't know why.
I don't need anyone's consolation because I know this is something I have to get over on my own.
I just need to stop letting people affect me. Avoid them. Stay away from whatever triggers my anger.
To not care at all, that's what I want. Not being ignorant, just to care less.

I don't care for a diary because I can never commit to writing neatly on a pretty book.
So I'm just going to be honest on this space. Thanks for reading.

"The grumpier you are, the more assholes you meet."
I second that.

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