It's funny,

how when someone says they love you,

you can't really feel it.

but when they say they don't love you anymore,

you can feel every ounce of what was drain out of your entire being.

"The best kind of love is when you have no expectations at all."

how on earth is that possible ? its the expectations that make us feel better after they're met.

but no, when they're not, things just start falling apart.

I don't know why is this hindering me so much. its affecting me so much that i do not wanna wake up. cause waking up only tells me that things still aren't fine. its like standing at the crossroads, not knowing what to do not knowing which path to choose because you don't know what it'll lead you to. and the most heart-wrenching thing is that i don't know whats the problem. so no matter how many answers i have or how many solutions i have i still can't solve it!

trust me, this feeling sucks. no amount of vulgarities can express my frustrations.

all you feel like doing is to tell every single person who talks to you to just fxck off. you just wanna be alone, alone until everything is fine, everything is settled, or at least nothing's bothering you no more.

xxx