NOT GOOD ENOUGH

The thing about me is I never forget. I might forgive but I can never forget.
I remember everything. Every single memory even though some are better off forgotten.
People change but memories don't. And that's what sucks. Sometimes I wish that memories can be permanently erased. If people leave they should bring their memories along with them. I don't think I'd wanna keep it if all I'm left with are just pieces to pick up and only memories to look back on at the end of the day. I don't think I'm strong enough to believe in this saying that "memories are kept to let you look back and smile". Because for me I'll ask for the reason why things don't last. Why can't it last. Why did it have to end. WHY.

I get upset. I reproach myself. I get pissed.
And then get angry at myself for feeling this way.
It happens again and again and again.

It's impossible to forget.
Every single effin time.
I'm left to pick up the damn pieces.




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